Thursday, 26 February 2009

What do you do when there's nothing there to be done?

Lately i have this feeling i'm not doing enough with my time. There's an underlying fear of failure, which everyone feels i guess. But throughout the day and in the evenings i get that shitty feeling you all hate: that somebody else who has your possibilities would have done so much more. Maybe it's true. Maybe it isn't. I suppose i'll never know because i won't care enough to do so.

On the other hand, what do you do when there's nothing to do? You have Canons, Hasselblads, Mamyias, Horsemans, Nikons, Wistas and i've probably named just about most proper camera makers - at your service.

What do we do with them?

I have a camera, now what? How do i get the subject? How do i make the first step?

Is there a way of convincing yourself that messenger/facebook are not the answer? They're fine and dandy when you have something that you MUST do and avoid it by staying on messenger, but when you want to take pictures, have a series, do what is known as PERSONAL WORK (the reason you started photography in the first place) - what do you do? where do you start?

I know the answer. If you would ask me i could probably tell you what to do.

But surely enough i can't seem to be doing it myself. It's only reasonable. The people who can't do much, teach other people how to do their thing. It's the way the world works. Odd, isn't it?

PS: that is my fridge
PPS: i have lots more film* than food now
*the amount of film is constant. the food resources drastically diminished.